Even though I was born 21 years ago, I’ve never felt so alive until today. Today was the day I was given a prescription for both estradiol and spironolactone and the day I can finally push away the body I dread so much.
I had my first appointment with my endocrinologist today. I was recommended to the gender clinic at the University of Michigan via my therapist. She suggested that I email the group to learn about the services they offered. It was certainly scary, but I knew this was the right decision. It was a decision that I had been considering my whole life. Fast-forward to after my Autumn semester of Uni, and here I am, sitting in the waiting room, unsure of what’s to come. I wasn’t alone though, I had my mom by my side: An uncommon sight for many trans*folk in this situation. She offered to come with me when I first told her about the appointment. I had come out to her in September and she’s been incredibly supportive since day one. I hope to do a full post on the process of coming out and the stress I experienced because of it, but that’s for the future.
It’s hard to explain the excitement I’m feeling. It’s like a wave of euphoria unrivaled by anything I’ve experienced before. Greater than getting a lead part in a play, greater than learning about a new sibling, even greater than an acceptance letter to an incredible university. Today, 18 Dec 18, will go down as another milestone in my life. Just as my 16th, 18th, and 21st brithday. The same as my first day of Uni or my high school graduation. These days all mark an important step in my life, and today, well today is no different.
I look forward to the future. As always I’ll write about my experiences. It takes a while for the hormones to kick in, but once they do, I’ll be happy to share my thoughts. Thank you for reading and thank you for your patience through my slight absence. The end of term is always busy for me and this year was no different.